28 is the new 22.

It’s official. I am in my late-20s. Goodbye mid-20s. I will not miss you.

Last week I turned 28 years old. There is nothing significant about this age, but it was a significant birthday for me. I have big plans for myself this year. This year I am focusing on living in the moment. This year I am focusing on enjoying what is right in front of me. This year I am focusing on making my life count.

After four years of studying to get good grades in college, after nearly 10 years of busting my butt to advance  in the workplace and to improve and build on my professional skills, and after four years of  trying to understand and survive motherhood, I am challenging myself to do things a little differently. I am challenging myself to breathe, take it all in, and live instead of simply doing my best to survive at home and at work.

In all honesty, I have discovered that I can actually relate a little to Taylor Swift. Yeah, I said it. I’m 28, but I feel a little like 22 this summer. For as long as I can remember, I have been pushing myself to grow up fast. I don’t regret anything, but I probably should have allowed myself to be young  and confused and free when I was younger. Instead, I was focused on eliminating confusion as quickly as possible because confusion and uncertainty scared me. I wanted stability, I wanted independence, and I wanted others to be able to depend on me. Well, now I am ready to shake things up a bit. At 28, I am going to allow myself to be confused. I am going to allow myself to be free of who I thought I should be. I am going to allow myself to pursue and live life the way I was meant and created to live — not recklessly, but with intention. I still don’t know what I am meant to do in this world while I am here. But at least I know now that I wasn’t on the right path.

I am confused, more than I have ever been before. But I am okay with that now. Why? Because Taylor Swift is right. Yeah, I said it again. This feeling of being confused is liberating. Yes, I do feel lonely at times because it can be difficult to connect with others when I am still trying to figure out in my own mind what it is that I am trying to achieve. But knowing that I have control over what I do with my confusion and new freedom makes me more happy than lonely. And in some of my loneliest moments, I discover that I am not alone at all. Over the summer, I have run into people I have not seen in years and discovered that we now share similar interests or have similar thoughts about being a twentysomething or a mother. I have met fellow bloggers who are writing about going through similar changes and transitions in their lives. Family members and friends have offered their support and encouragement as I try to figure out what’s next for me after leaving my job earlier this summer. I may feel lonely due to my confusion, but the more comfortable I get with feeling confused, the more I realize that I am connecting with others more than I have in a long time.

Somedays I do feel frustrated and miserable about not knowing what I want to do when I “grow up.” But this summer has been truly magical.

Hi. I’m Aimee. I’m 28.

Earlier this summer I took a huge leap of faith and quit my full-time job to be a full-time mom for the summer. I “gave up” my “career” because it wasn’t right for me or my family. I don’t know what sort of “career” is right for me. But I do know that I love being a mom. I am confused, but I have never felt more free in my life. That’s all part of the journey, though. Who’s with me?

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17 thoughts on “28 is the new 22.

  1. Great post!

    I can be so much of a planner and looking to progress and develop without really just enjoying it all. It’s fab to see you just embracing life as it comes instead of always looking so far forward you miss what’s happening!

    Good luck!

  2. I wish you the best of luck on this new journey of yours! I did something similar a few years back (at the age of 27) and closed my family business I had taken over from my father to be a full time mom. I think it was the best descision of my life, the business, the crazy hours were not the right for for me or my growing family. It’s been a crazy journey, we’ve run into a few road blocks and bumps along the way but I don’t regret my descision. I was always so focused on my career and business I lost who I was, who I was meant to be. I have never been happier in my life. Best of luck!

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  4. Everytime I read one of your posts it reminds me that change is ok. Figuring out what you really want in life is ok. My husband and I are slowly making a huge transition in our careers… the bills are always on our minds when that day comes but it won’t be forever and we will be successful 🙂 You are on a good path!

    • The scary thing about change, for me, is not knowing how it will all work out in the end. Uncertainty scares me. I like routines and patterns because I know what’s coming next. But this isn’t always good. Sometimes the patterns and routines become too burdensome and wear you down. Recognizing that it is time to make a change is half the battle, and taking that leap of faith to make the change may be one of the most difficult yet rewarding things you can do. Yes, change can be good, even when it is scary. Good luck with the changes you plan on making! I hope you share your journey on your blog!

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